DAY 21: The one where even though I lose, I win.

Today is Day 21 of Deepak Chopra and Oprah's 21 day meditation challenge Desire and Destiny. Hallelujah!!! At the top of the meditation Deepak congratulated me for completing the 21 day challenge. (It's pre-recorded. He doesn't know it actually took me 45. But who's counting?) The centering thought of this very special mediation is, "My Destiny is joy." And it all focused on the idea that nothing is too extraordinary. If you can dream it, then you can do it. So go ahead, dream a bigger dream for yourself. I LOVED this meditation especially. I actually listened to it two days in a row because I was awaiting good news and expected to write you a jubilant conclusion to my meditation journey to prove that dreams really do come true. Except when they don't.

DAY 20: The one where I find another perspective

And we're in the home stretch!!! Day 20 of Deepak Chopra and Oprah's 21 Day meditation challenge Desire and Destiny. I've learned a lot on the journey. #1: Sometimes I bite off more than I can chew. #2: Sometimes it's OK not to hit every single deadline as long as you're making progress and enjoying yourself on the way. And #3: I need to learn social media and marketing because at this rate I'll grow my page slower than my grandma can figure out how to send an email. And that is SLOW. But I really have learned a lot on this journey, along with my fair share of struggling. The biggest perk has been that the meditations give me a thought to focus on in the midst of my many emotional mood swings, peppered with anxiety and a dollup of depression.

DAY 18: The one where I learn to relax

But today let's focus on the centering thought of the day. "I play. I create. I succeed." Deepak explains that the more time we spend playing and "dancing through life like a child," the more creative and productive we will actually become. This is a HUGE message to me because I often feel anxiety whenever I take time off from trying to further my career. (Oh my God I'm 34. Practically dead. There's no time for FUN!!!!) In my head I'm wasting most of my life away working at the hotel so any little time off I should be working more on my career. But as the saying goes, "All work and no play, makes Jack a dull boy." Or girl. If you must be politically correct. And it's true. Whenever I have a deadline, if I force creativity too much I just end up with one major writer's block. Or headache. Or stomachache because I stress eat.

DAY 16: Follow Your Bliss

Today is another day of meditation and enlightenment! And what better place to do this than at DISNEY WORLD?? That's right. I'm in Florida with my family for the next week tapping into my inner child. (Not that that's too hard. I'm pretty much a goofball all the time!)  So when I sat down to do day 16 of my meditation challenge Desire and Destiny it seemed perfect that the centering thought was, "Bliss be my guide." Uhhhh if I can't find bliss at Disney World then my problems are more serious than I thought.

DAY 14: The one where I’m grateful

Today is Day 14 of my meditation challenge Desire and Destiny with Deepak Chopra and Oprah. And this one is all about gratitude! So first and foremost, to those who have read my blog, THANK YOU!!!! This process has been challenging, but mostly rewarding. It's given me a jump start back into following my joy and I'm so grateful for those of you who have encouraged me to keep going. (Don't be afraid to leave comments! While I'm fighting to override my ego, I DO still have one. )

DAY 13: “You gotta have faith, faith, faith”

"I believe. I trust. I let go." That's the centering thought in day 13 of the Desire and Destiny meditation series I'm currently doing. It's funny how the right message always comes to you exactly when you need it. Today centers around the fact that uncertainty is certain. I'm really glad to learn this because here I thought everyone else had it figured out except me. As a type A control freak I want to know exactly where I'm going, at what time, and for how long. (And if it comes with an itinerary all the better.)

DAY 12- “I am inspired. I’m unstoppable.”

Today is Day 12 of the 21 day meditation challenge Desire and Destiny with Deepak Chopra and Oprah. The centering thought is "I am inspired. I'm unstoppable." But today I felt anything but. I had a million things to do and not enough time to do it. Has this ever happened to you? You start thinking about all the things you have to accomplish and the next thing you know you're crying in the car on the way to the dry cleaners? No? Just me? Cool.

DAY 11: The one where I go to a really cool church

Today is Day 11 of my 21 day challenge. If you're new I'm doing Deepak Chopra and Oprah's meditation Desire and Destiny. (And go back and read the other posts to catch up!) Today's centering thought is, "I create my reality." Now before all you non-believers jump in and say, "Everything is random, look at Hurricane Irma, are you saying those people created their reality?" Or super religious peeps chime in with, "Blasphemy! God creates our reality. Do you think you're God?" I have to let you know that I agree with ALL of you.

DAY 10: Shake It Off, Shake It Off

First, I want to say I'm sorry for not posting yesterday. I made a promise that I would do at least 21 posts in 21 days of this meditation practice. It looks like I'm going to finish in 22 days instead because yes, I failed you and did not meditate yesterday. I know! Judge me if you will. I'm like a politician breaking his vows within the first 100 days, except in my case I only made it 10 (In the words of Homer Simpson, "D'oh!" ) In my defense, I'm going through a difficult situation in my personal life at the moment (I'm not ready to talk about it yet, but I promise I will!) and needed to have a girls' night of champagne cocktails and seeing Ingrid Goes West (which I HIGHLY recommend) to get my mind off of my  self-wallowing misery. (Plus it's dark in the movie theater and I had really bad raccoon eyes.)